Look Who's Forty!

Time got away from me and I cannot believe how long it's been since my last post. I foolishly thought having the kids back in school would give me more time!

Look who's forty! Here's the clue...it's not me. I love teasing Doug, my better half, that I'll always been younger than him. For those of you who have to know, I am four years younger than Doug. Since I have four years to go before turning 40 I enjoyed teasing him about it. He is starting to get a bit of distinguished grey hair. All that makes me ponder the passage of time.

I don't feel thirty-six. Oops, I gave it away! I still feel like the same giggly sixteen year old ready to try anything life brought her way. I still laugh loudly, cry tenderly, love golden retrievers, etc. If I saw any of my high school friends today they'd all say I'm the same. They loved me because I loved to party, laugh, but also because I listened to them and deeply cared about all of them. They used to say I'd make a great mother someday due to my nurturing talent. At the time I'd laugh and say I never wanted to have kids. Well, look at me now.

The funny thing is I have changed in a much deeper, harder to see way. My faith has shaped and changed me. It moved deep into my heart and changed the bad things about me, but it only increased my joy and fun loving nature. While I don't regret my twenties, I certainly have no desire to relive them. I don't miss being twenty something. But I also don't feel like I'm getting old.

My daughter would tell you with the roll of her eyes that I'm getting old. There is nothing more annoying to me than a nine year old rolling her eyes at you whenever you say something important. That makes me feel old.

There is one thing I rely upon...life is such a gift and we need to cherish each day. We never know which day will be our last. We have no way to know that. So in the meantime we must live it to the fullest!

I had such a great time at Doug's birthday party (pictured above). That's a memory I will carry with me forever. It was wonderful to see all our great friends and family there to share the night.